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Just another heart in need of rescue
March 4, 2009

*Sigh* I had to drop off my little foster pug tonight which was not an easy task. Especially after letting her sleep in my bed, play with Pugsley's old toys and eat out of his food bowls that I had kept.

It was bittersweet having a little puglet in the house again. The snorts, the grunts, the smells, the personality and comedy that can only be found in this particular breed. How I missed it all and how I loved to be surrounded by it again. I was almost able to pet her in the dark and imagine the Sausage was still here. Then it felt wrong, so I stopped.

She was only here for 4 days so I tried to remain stoic and a little detached in my mission but I think she got kind of used to me loving on her, something I gather she hadn't really experienced until now....and that made her impossible to resist.

I mean, I am completely stoked that I was able to help her and that she will soon be going to a loving home where someone can give her everything she needs and deserves. And I definitely wouldn't let it stop me from fostering again....but OMG it was harder than I thought to say goodbye!

I was fine right up until about 10 minutes before when we were driving to the destination. It was as if she knew she was going to another place and would have to leave me. She started whimpering and pawing at my arm while I was driving.

Of course it didn't help that every song on the radio was a sad epic anthem of departure and the tears started welling. I kept changing the station but each song was worse than the one before:

Whitesnake, "Here I go again"

Simple Minds, "Don't you forget about me"

Elton John, "Your Song"

James Taylor, "You've got a friend"

Celine Dion, "My heart will go on"

Ugh!!

The ride home was kina sad too and the house is back to being empty again.

One more day and I would have been a goner.

Posted by Lori on March 4, 2009 10:25 PM permalink Comments (8)

 

 

emily the biker pug commented March 4, 2009 9:19 PM

Oh Lori I hope your heart mends quickly.
I can't imagine how the fosters that have the very sick pugs mend them and send them on their way.
We are failures at being fosters cause they never leave here.
Thank God there are people like you.

 

 

SL commented March 4, 2009 9:50 PM

SL,
You are a wonderful foster mamma and I'm certain you made Romeo proud.

You made me proud. You always do. Thank you so very much for being with my dad today I know it was not easy.

Love you. YFSL

 

 

Kelly commented March 5, 2009 11:23 AM

Excellent work with your first time foster Lori!!
The first one out is always the hardest. I know the ride
must of been tough but I bet you feel great today for
having helped her :)

P.S. Those songs would have wrecked me too!! LOL

Love,
Kelly

 

 

Sandy commented March 5, 2009 11:54 AM

Lori,

Bravo. Being foster mom is hard work. You have to be strong enough to love them and strong enough to let them go.

I started fostering 10 years ago and it has been the best most rewarding experience of my life. I also have a foster child (human) and we teach all of our children about the importance of animal rescue, we get them involved with the fur fosters and they really love it.

Keep up the great work!

Sandy

 

 

Lori commented March 5, 2009 12:20 PM

Thanks! You are right it is hard but I already feel fine today. Saying goodbye was just difficult. There was no part of me that thought even for a minute, "oh I have to keep this dog".. Not at all. It's just they have a way of wiggling into your heart temporarily, especially the rescues because you just want to give them the love they never experienced...I will def. be fostering more in the future.

 

 

Jan commented March 5, 2009 3:25 PM

One of these days we're going to read that a Pug has rescued YOUR heart, and will be staying with you permanently. Someday...

 

 

Mary commented March 6, 2009 9:39 AM

Oh Lori, the first one really is the hardest, and although its not easy seeing them go, after a while, you start to smile, knowing what you have done for them. Where they came from and where they are going, after knowing where they came from. Its never easy, but after a while, you smile, knowing they will never be abused or neglected again. I am sure it was harder for you and easy for me to say, being that I still have 5 and more dogs in my home after Sledgehammer passed. Thats the one I will never get over. Fostering is more rewarding than you can imagine. And when the adoptive family sends you greeting cards, updates and pictures..... :)

All I heard were those songs, and add to it, Crying, by Roy Orbison and K.D. Lang, and The Dance, by Garth Brooks.

 

 

Becky commented March 6, 2009 6:33 PM

I think those songs were telling you something, maybe it was a message from Pugsley, that there is a pug in your near future. Pug rescue is such rewarding work!

 



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