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Strength of heart
November 18, 2010

The last week has been touch and go. Plummy became weak and stopped eating, she started spiraling downhill. Her blood work revealed her kidney values are sky high, despite the iv fluids, medications, and all measures. The vet said there is nothing more they can do, they gave me their on call number so they could come here last weekend and help her end her journey, peacefully.

Since then I haven't left her side and have been doing everything I can to keep her happy and strong. In turn she has been responding and fighting back.

She didn't want to eat but she took food from a plastic syringe that I fed her several times a day, lapping it up like she was nursing from a bottle and it was enough to sustain her. She started drinking a ton of water to hydrate herself. She wakes every two hour in the night to get up and drink water, I help her off the bed as she can no longer jump down and is too unsteady on her feet to trust her stepper. She's drinking enough to stay hydrated and her gums are still pink.

I've taken her on car rides so she can feel the warm sun her face. Her tail started wagging again and remains curled most of the time.

Her trembling episodes from the neurotoxins building up in her bloodstream have ceased over the last few days and miraculously, she has started eating on her own again.

The other night she started playing with a toy that she's never touched before, she was shaking it and throwing it at me like she wanted to play tug of war. She even got the growlies and her will to stay strong and stay with me, moved me to tears.

The Dr's are looking at the numbers on a medical chart and saying she should no longer be here. But what they don't see is her continuing to fight everyday, they don't see that she is still happy and has a good quality of life. She is in no pain or suffering, she is still eating and drinking and loving.

I know that can all change tomorrow and I'll have to make the call, or pray that God takes her so I don't have to.

I can't explain it other than to say as her master who knows her best that it can only be her strong spirit, love, and strength of heart that continues to power her on. She has truly become an inspiration to me, and I am thankful for every moment we have together.

Posted by Lori on November 18, 2010 10:40 AM permalink Comments (9)



Robin commented November 18, 2010 11:09 AM

Lori-my heart goes out to you...I love little Plummy and her magnificent spirit and you with your willingness to open your heart again. You have my prayers and all the hopeful goodwill I can send. Stay strong-Robin



Casey commented November 18, 2010 2:38 PM

Awww (((Lori and Plum))) will be thinking of you both... I am so happy you are there to show her true love and let her enjoy whatever time she has left...
HUGS Casey



Kim commented November 18, 2010 4:06 PM

I'm so sorry that Plummy isn't doing well but glad to hear she's doing her best to rally. I'm sure you are doing everything you can and Plummy loves you for that. I know it's hard, I lost my first pug Romeo right after Thanksgiving 2 years ago, then my second pug the next spring. Have 3 pugs now and my oldest turned 13 on 11/1 and is really slowing down w/arthritis. I read your blog because you give me strength to carry on.



lauren commented November 18, 2010 7:34 PM

Thank you for being the person you are to take care of this little one. It makes me smile that you are doing everything you can take make her feel comfortable and happy. My heart goes out to you and Plummy



Trudy commented November 18, 2010 7:37 PM

I am saddened to hear of Plummy's state; my heart goes out to you!



Becky commented November 18, 2010 8:34 PM

Glad you posted on Plum. I was afraid something may have happened. She will tell you when she is ready to go, at least my boxer did. They don't want to leave us anymore than we want to let them go. Plum is indeed enjoying the best days of her entire life since she has been with you. I know Pugsley is proud of you for being such a wonderful pug Mama. Thinking and praying for you and Plum. Hugs and kisses to Plum!



emily the biker pug commented November 18, 2010 9:24 PM

Lori this is bitter sweet news indeed.
It's hard to read this and not get choked up.
Your treatment of Plum is a window of your heart.
Plum has been in heaven on earth with you.
As always thinking of Plum, you and CTPR.



Lauren Gaught commented November 18, 2010 11:19 PM

Oh Lori,
I want you to know I am thinking of you and Plummy, and praying for her strength and well being everyday... Looking for updates, this is one of the first places I come when I log on each day...

"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will."
-Mahatma Gandhi



Mike Masishin commented November 20, 2010 11:35 AM

Reading this breaks my heart. I pray for both of you. You have given Plum the best days of her life and she has loved you for doing so. The picture of you and her by the lake says it all. It has a majestic quality. I have followed all the posts and, like everyone else here, grown fond of Plum. I wish the best for her and you too Lori.


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