beyond
August 5, 2011

I've been thinking about Plummy a lot lately.

I mean I think about her and my other deceased pugs (Pugsley and Norman) everyday anyway, but Plummy I've been ruminating about more than usual.

I am just now able to look back at some of her pictures without getting too sad and I remembered this one taken on an unusually balmy November afternoon when she was nearing the end and the Dr.'s actually told me I should put her down.

So I took her out to some of my favorite nature spots and we just had quiet time to think and "be"....it was right after our nature outing that she turned a corner and rallied to stay with me. I think she realized that I wasn't quite ready to let her go...and she wasn't ready to leave me either.

After that outing she miraculously began eating on her own again and seemed very peaceful and spry. She stayed strong for 2 more months after this (right up until the end) and it was the most beautiful, calm, compassionate, and loving 2 months I believe of her life, and probably of my life too.

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Looking back at this photo now with a different perspective it reminds me of the blog header I had conceived of years before, after Pugsley passed and I imagined him somewhere in another universe wandering around looking for me, and while I was glad he was free from the cancer and the pain... and I had raised him up in mind and heart, walking on water even...it always made me a little sad to think of him lost and alone. Maybe because that's how I was feeling without him and as his mama, I wanted to protect him and didn't want him to ever feel that kind of ache.

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But now I look at the two pictures side by side and I can see what was really going on that day; I was preparing Plummy for her next journey and I think I may have even told her that she needed to go be with her pug brother and keep him company for a while, until we could all be together again one day.

It's funny, I can see so clearly now that my mind and my heart had unknowingly created this scenerio and the universe and everything in it here and in the hereafter, followed my lead.

I can see it now in the reflection of the water and the reflection of our hearts, something about the rueful colors of the November sky, the time of day, and the uneven hills rolling up behind.. Just her and I, communicating with no words but feeling exactly in our souls what was in that moment and what was to be, beyond.... It is simply too divine to not be true.

And then I knew from somewhere deep inside that no matter what, none of us would ever really be alone.

And nothing could ever come between our bond, not even death.

It fills me with a great sense of peace, and knowing, and pride.

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long time coming
March 12, 2010

Well friends, I am officially under contract.

If all goes well I move into my pug farm in 45 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pics to follow when I actually have the keys. :) :) :) :)

Meanwhile, I'll give you this little snapshot for now... my 2-stall horse barn and paddock. Giddy up!

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You know you're a dog lover when...
September 22, 2009

6:30Am standing in the shower, eyes still squinted tightly closed from the night before, half awake when you reach for the shampoo bottle and proceed to soak up a thick lather working it through from root to tip.... when suddenly it strikes you there is something vaguely familiar but askew about the smell..

malaseb.gifThat's when you open your eyes, look down at the bottle and make the connection - Malaseb medicated dog shampoo used to treat bacterial and fungal infections in dogs, cats, and horses.

It was bound to happen......Plum has more shampoo bottles in the shower than me.

I don't expect to be doing any itching or scratching on my head or contracting ringworm anytime soon.

On a side note, I don't remember my hair ever being this soft and manageable.

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the day ain't over yet....
September 17, 2009

Watching City Slickers and snuggling with a snoring puglet.....perfect way to wind down after a great week!

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Here are some of my favorite quotes from the film...

[while Mitch Robbins is delivering the calf (Norman)]
Mitch Robbins: You know, this was not in the brochure...

Mitch Robbins: Look what I did....I made a cow!
Curly: He looks like you.

[when Curly tells Mitch they will be sleeping under the stars together]
Mitch: "Oh God, it's Deliverance."

Mitch: Women need a reason for having sex, men just need a place.

[Phil, the supermarket manager, has gotten a co-worker pregnant]
Ed Furillo: What did you use for protection, paper or plastic?

Curly: I crap bigger than you!

Mitch Robbins: Hi Curly. Killed anyone today?
Curly: The day ain't over yet...

Phil Berquist: You know you were right, Mitch. My life is a "do-over". It's time to get started.

Cookie: The food's brown, hot, and plenty of it.

Clay Stone: Great gobs of goose shit!

Clay Stone: I feel as happy as a puppy dog with two peters.

Clay Stone: When you three first got here, you were as worthless as hen shit on a pump handle.

Mitch Robbins: Those cows trusted us.

Curly: Yer spookin' the cattle

[Cookie is asked to say something at Curly's burial]
Cookie: Lord, we give you Curly. Try not to piss him off.

Phil Berquist: Let's have some peace and quiet around here for ___ sake! I'm tired! Im stressed out! I lost my wife, I lost my job, and I'm developing some kind of rash from making in the bushes!

Curly: Do you know what the secret of life is?
[holds up one finger]
Curly: This.
Mitch: Your finger?
Curly: One thing. Just one thing. You stick to that and the rest don't mean shit.
Mitch: But, what is the "one thing?"
Curly: [smiles] That's what *you* have to find out.

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adopted
September 1, 2009

It's official.....I am a foster failure! I have adopted Plum :)

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Pug Woman
July 23, 2009

If I were a super hero, which let's face it in my own mind, I am.....this would be my superhero alter ego: Pug Woman!

Pug woman is the protector and defender of helpless pugs on Earth. She creeps out at night in dark alleys seeking justice for the poor pugs that have been wronged in this world. Among Pug Woman's supernatural powers: she can fly, wield a sword like a Japanese warrior, hypnotize unsuspecting cads by gazing into their eyes, catch villains with her double curled tail using it as a whip and snare....and apparently Pug Woman can rock a mean corset too.
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Visit Marvel's site to create your own Marvel Super Hero!

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healing
July 2, 2009

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Easter eggs
April 11, 2009

I updated my Facebook status to say, "Lori is blowing easter eggs" and all of my pervy friends came out of the woodwork with the dirty comments. Kind of funny, actually.

Anyway people are interested in how you make the hallowed eggs so here is a little tutorial.

What you do is puncture the ends of the eggs with a pin or I used a nail. Then you blow on one end until all the egg gunk comes out. You have to use a lot of lung power to get it out and be careful not to crack the egg as you're puncturing and blowing. Also it's kind of gross.

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After the egg is emptied you fill the holes with hot water and blow that out until the egg is clean. Let dry. In some cases you can patch the holes with whiteout.
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While the eggs are drying I like to sketch out my designs.
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Then you can decorate however you want. I went to town with the acrylic paints.. and voila, pug eggs!

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I can't wait to hide some for my nephew so he can hunt for them. I will keep my one commemorative Sausage egg and plan to sell or raffle the rest at upcoming pug rescue fundraisers.
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Happy Easter and Passover.

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Eloise at the Plaza
April 9, 2009

I'll get to Nobu and the other culinary delights of NYC in my next entry.

But first - how could I resist being at the Plaza and having my picture taken with my favorite children's book characters Eloise and Weenie?

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NYC bound
April 6, 2009

I'm off to the city. Taking a break from the novel writing to meet up with family and friends for some pre-Easter festivities.

I am so excited to spend time with Cousin Nicole who I've not seen since my 2007 trip to San Fran when we dined at Blowfish in the mission and I ate the best sushi of my life. Best sake too. This time we plan to find the best east coast sushi. My current theory is the west coast rocks sushi better than the east, but that may all change after this trip. I have an open mind.

Items on the itinerary:

• Dinner at Nobu
• Dessert at the Plaza
• Cupcakes at Magnolia Bakery
• Lunch with Stephen
• Coffee with Drea
• Quick stop at Dean and Deluca
• Try on some boyfriend jeans to see if I can pull the look off. I might be too short for cuffing.

Cupcakes and sushi. Oh. My.

I'll try to take some good pictures while I'm there.

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Come to your senses
March 10, 2009

I LOVE THE TASTE OF Homemade spaghetti sauce and meatballs, mashed potatoes with extra butter and salt, soft serve vanilla ice cream with mixed sprinkles, cold roast beef sandwiches with a side of potato salad from the Carnegie Deli, meatloaf and mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, Mint Snapple, tomato basil and mozzarella on a French baguette, fresh cilantro, warm scalloped potatoes, oven roast beef simmered in tawny port wine gravy, salmon sushi with tempura flakes soy sauce and wasabi horseradish, avocado turkey and provolone roll ups, pizza goldfish crackers, sausage pizza with a thin crust, Caymus cabernet and assorted dark fruity oaks, Papua New Guinea and Sumatra coffee, powdered confectioner's sugar sprinkled on French toast, Chips Ahoy! Chocolate chip cookies dunked in cold milk, lobster bisque soup, cream cheese with onions and chives, enchiladas smothered in mole sauce, pineapple bombers with a cherry twist, frozen strawberry margaritas, cider donuts, filet mignon cooked rare on the grill, baked brussel sprouts with caramelized onions drizzled on top, banana bread, fully loaded nachos and baked potatoes, strawberry twizzlers, applesauce pancakes, Five Guys cheeseburgers, dark chocolate lemon crème candies, Carvel ice cream cake chocolate crumbles, lump crabmeat, spicy tuna bowls, beef carpaccio with capers and imported cheese, everything bagels from Arthur Avenue, Thanksgiving gravy made from pan drippings, surf and turf, blueberry tea, macaroni salad with red onions in the summer, fiddleheads sauteed in garlic and butter, sweet corn on the cob, watermelon martini's, crusted goat cheese balls in a light creamy vinaigrette salad, grilled cheese tomato and bacon on whole wheat, home fries and chocolate milk, bohemian beef stew, pot roast in the pressure cooker, pickle juice squeezed on anything with cheese.


I LOVE THE SMELL OF Dean and Deluca's, Waxy Pug ears and stinky Frito feet, baby skin, newly lain hardwood floors, super elastic bubble plastic, puppy breath, white t shirts saturated in man sweat, cotton candy from Yankee candles, fresh cut grass after a spring rain, salt water, the ocean, my grandmother's bible, lavender bubble baths, lingering incense in the Catholic church, aftershave, Hollister store, my bed, sheets air drying on the clothes line, Sunday dinner cooking, lilac trees, sage, sweet grass, eucalyptus, Pugsley's bed, campfires and wooded trails, musty tents, Dolce and Gabbanna's Light Blue perfume, pine trees, tomatoes in the garden, soup greens, Logics shampoo and conditioner, greasy spoon diners, movie theatre popcorn, farms and fresh bailed hay.

I LOVE THE SIGHT OF Green golf courses, river bugs hatching, watching a rainbow rise, pink dogwood trees in bloom, friends smiling faces, bikini lines, newborn puppies, dark hair and blue eyes, perennial gardens, hiking trails, children holding hands with their little friends, snowflakes falling under street lights, rocking chairs on porches, log cabins lakeside, old barns and silo's, wood beamed rustic interiors, black and white photos, Vermont ski house with fireplace and hot tubs, a fresh pedicure with open toed sandals, babies learning how to walk, farm animals, red and white checkered tablecloths at outdoor picnics, pitchers of lemonade and ice tea, twinkling lights on the Christmas tree, glances from across the room, bedroom eyes, fireflies in glass jars, a family taking home their new dog, rolling hills, caves on an adventure, turtles mating on the boardwalk trail, fresh meat counter at Stew Leonards, digging for clams, kids dressed up in Halloween costumes, home after a long trip.

I LOVE THE SOUND OF Music, nature, pug snorts and chortles, uncontrollable laughter, acoustic guitar, sad cellos and violins, creaky wood boards, ecstasy, my BlackBerry vibrating, thunderstorms, clicking clacking dog nails on hardwood floors, trickling rain in the dark with a window open, pilots saying, "we've just landed", my nephew chattering, a golf ball when whacked just right with the 7 iron, cows mooing, horses trotting, dogs dreaming, pigs grunting, firecrackers on the fourth of july, bedtime stories, kindling wood crackling in the fireplace, moans escaping in the dark of night, a guy's voice you wanted to call on your answering machine, harbor seals on Fisherman's Wharf, prospective employers calling to say they received your resume and want to meet with you, wolves howling, Tibetan singing bowls, native drumming, woodpeckers in trees, Broadway theatres, classic movies on a dreary afternoon.

I LOVE THE FEEL OF Lambs wool, Clean sheets fresh from the dryer, baby oil, big arms wrapped around me, loose fitting jeans, pajama bottoms and a tank top, leather seats and couches, down comforters, hot stone massage, wearing nothing but a silk slip, my hair after a really good cut and blow dry, swimming in the lake on a really hot day, fleece bathrobe, tube socks, sleeping on a silk pillowcase, clean shaven lotioned legs, soft skin, hairy stomachs and chests, soaking up the sunshine on a boat or beach, soothing sore muscles in the sauna after a tough workout, slipping into a crisp suit, riding a horse, silky pug ears, pink belly fur, baby folds and skin rolls, endorphins rushing, tongues getting to know one another, warm woolen mittens, lip gloss, warm soup on a cold day, extra hot showers, butt warmers on my car seat.

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without a doubt
February 18, 2009

Whenever I find myself searching for answers to life's big questions I do what any self respecting child of the 80's would do. I consult with my magic 8 ball.

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Unfortunately I can't tell you the question, or the answer may not come true....but the fact that I'm letting you look up my left nostril should be adequate enough for now.

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my next job..
January 13, 2009

I found this article on Yahoo today. I'm going to apply!

Australia offers 'best job in world' on paradise island

barrierreefjob.gif SYDNEY (AFP) - An Australian state is offering internationally what it calls "the best job in the world" -- earning a top salary for lazing around a beautiful tropical island for six months.

The job pays 150,000 Australian dollars (105,000 US dollars) and includes free airfares from the winner's home country to Hamilton Island on the Great Barrier Reef, Queensland's state government announced on Tuesday.

In return, the "island caretaker" will be expected to stroll the white sands, snorkel the reef, take care of "a few minor tasks" -- and report to a global audience via weekly blogs, photo diaries and video updates.

The successful applicant, who will stay rent-free in a three-bedroom beach home complete with plunge pool and golf buggy, must be a good swimmer, excellent communicator and be able to speak and write English.

"They'll also have to talk to media from time to time about what they're doing so they can't be too shy and they'll have to love the sea, the sun, the outdoors," said acting state Premier Paul Lucas.

"The fact that they will be paid to explore the islands of the Great Barrier Reef, swim, snorkel and generally live the Queensland lifestyle makes this undoubtedly the best job in the world."

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back in business
December 4, 2008

Happy to report Phase 3 is a wrap.

The coup de grâce as you recall, is now complete and it is awesome! Worth all the hard work. I feel so much more productive already.

I need to do something about the wires...... but overall it turned out even better than I thought it would. Not to sound like a total girl....but it even matches my guitar which wasn't intentional but is a nice bonus.

I promised before and after pics: Click the image to view bigger:

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Now if you will excuse me while I go crank my new speakers up to some Zeppelin and Queen....

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disarray
December 3, 2008

I don't function very well when things are in total disarray. Don't get me wrong I'm no neat freak or OCD type where my surroundings all need to be in perfect order but everything is very much in transition around me at the moment and my reaction is somewhere between balls to the walls let's get it done and latent procrastination resulting in indecisiveness because it all seems a bit overwhelming when in the middle of it.

I'm trying to learn a new operating system with a monitor that is currently sitting on an end table because there is no other place for it. For the life of me I can't seem to figure out in Windows Vista how to enable the intuitive search function so it will interpret my search strokes, turn on the auto spell checker in Word, and remember my logins and password because I'm too aggravated to keep retyping them all. I also don't like the sidebar they put on top of the screen and don't know how to get rid of it. And apparantly not ALL of the applications and stuff I run is compatible with Vista 64-bit. I'm wishing I got 32-bit but its too late now. I'm in too deep to even think about returning anything. I'll have to go out and find workarounds and upgrades to deal with it.

My laptop crashed 3 days before my new computer arrived and it refuses to power back up. I knew it was a matter of time, I was tempting fate and living on the edge for so long which is why I invested in the new system....What I wasn't prepared for was a total lack of power supply. According to my plan, I was supposed to be lap linking (e.g. transferring all files from old computer to new computer) by now. But that isn't happening.

It's especially disturbing because all of my important files were saved on the laptop along with all of my Pugsley pictures and Videos that I CANNOT lose!! The laptop is now at the repair shop and I'm praying it can be fixed. .. jumping up every time the phone rings waiting for the news.

I hated to paint and throw down new rugs afraid the newness and change would take Pug memories further away. To my great surprise, even through 3 coats of paint, numerous trim and the removal of the pug rugs....it still smells like him in here. It isn't logical so it must be that he really is lingering around and he knows I still need those smells. Pug hairs and whiskers keep popping up in the oddest of places....and I couldn't be happier about that.

But back to the disarray -- The walls are done from yellow to green and an empty nook awaits the new computer desk installation.
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There are new furniture pieces strewn about the house, temporary placements for hardware, wires coming out of every corner, tripping over them, making sure the grounded plugs are not a fire hazard before I leave to run errands....and big chunks of furniture blocking off doors to hallways.

Yet somehow it all seems so small with other life stuff happening. Loved ones in hospitals and feeling helpless to the ones I want to console.... and another family dog has passed away.

It may be time for another grilled cheese. Or spaghetti and meatballs, I haven't decided which.

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Good Friday
March 21, 2008

When Jesus gave his greatest sermon, the Sermon on the Mount this is what he spoke to the crowds (found in the 5th, 6th, and 7th chapters of Matthew):

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Beatitudes

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the gentle, for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.

Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are you when people insult you and persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me.

Rejoice and be glad, for your reward in heaven is great; for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Light of the world
You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt has become tasteless, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled under foot by men. You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden; nor does anyone light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.

Go the extra mile
You have heard that it was said, "An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth." But I say to you, do not resist an evil person; but whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also. If anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, let him have your coat also. Whoever forces you to go one mile, go with him two. Give to him who asks of you, and do not turn away from him who wants to borrow from you.

Love your neighbor
You have heard that it was said, "You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy." But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? If you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? Therefore you are to be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Giving
Beware of practicing your righteousness before men to be noticed by them; otherwise you have no reward with your Father who is in heaven. So when you give to the poor, do not sound a trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, so that they may be honored by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. But when you give to the poor, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving will be in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.

Pray in secret
When you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. And when you are praying, do not use meaningless repetition as the Gentiles do, for they suppose that they will be heard for their many words. So do not be like them; for your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.

Fasting
Whenever you fast, do not put on a gloomy face as the hypocrites do, for they neglect their appearance so that they will be noticed by men when they are fasting. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face so that your fasting will not be noticed by men, but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.

Judging others
Do not judge so that you will not be judged. For in the way you judge, you will be judged; and by your standard of measure, it will be measured to you. Why do you look at the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, "Let me take the speck out of your eye," and behold, the log is in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye. Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

Ask, seek, and knock
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. Or what man is there among you who, when his son asks for a loaf, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, he will not give him a snake, will he?
If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!

The Golden Rule
In everything, therefore, treat people the same way you want them to treat you, for this is the Law and the Prophets.

Wide and narrow gates
Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is broad that leads to destruction, and there are many who enter through it. For the gate is small and the way is narrow that leads to life, and there are few who find it.

Wolves in sheep's clothing

Beware of the false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Grapes are not gathered from thorn bushes nor figs from thistles, are they? So every good tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot produce bad fruit, nor can a bad tree produce good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. So then, you will know them by their fruits.

Wise and foolish builders
Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock. Everyone who hears these words of Mine and does not act on them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. The rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and it fell - and great was its fall.

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addictions
March 5, 2008

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My Blackberry Crackberry
Dunkin Donuts large decaf with cream and two splenda
Pizza Goldfish crackers
Dark chocolate cream filled candies
Trader Joes
eBay
Pug smells
Music
Passion
Internet
Lip balm
Orbits Bubblemint gum
Blogging
Gardening
Slinky
Chocolate milk
Rare roast beef
Sausage and cheese on a hard roll w/ no egg, no butter, and a side of home fries (Mmmmmm)
Digital camera
My bed
Planks
My nephew
Mahjong
Bella Dahl sweats
Kissing
Texting
Sushi on no meat Fridays
Logics shampoo and conditioner
Radio control buttons on my steering wheel
Antibacterial hand sanitizer
Gmail

I guess there are worse things I could be addicted to.....what are some of yours?

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O Christmas Tree
December 9, 2007

On Doctor's orders, I had to stay home and rest this weekend so I can lick this thing once and for all. By day four of my new antibiotics I started feeling a lot better. I guess the last doctor didn't give me the strong enough drugs. Azithromycin 250mg rocks. It's probably what I needed all along. So turns out being stuck home wasn't all that bad. I actually got a lot of stuff done like making a big dent in my Christmas shopping, online style. I gave Pugsley a bath because he was getting kind of ripe, now he is soft and sweet smelling. Also figured it was a good time to get my tree done. See Sausage has never not had a real Xmas tree in his 13 years so who am I to disappoint him at this stage of the game?

Here are some pictures of our tree this year and some of my favorite ornaments. Some people have themed trees. Mine is kind of a collection of all the ornaments that are near and dear to me for various reasons. Though I do seem to have collected a large number of pug ornaments over the years...

Of course Pugsley is my favorite "ornament"
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From the Island of Misfit toys, Rudolph, Clarice, and Hermey
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Handmade Pugsley ornament made out of a sea shell and up to the right is a gold star that my grandfather made by hand in the 1920's
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Country sheep, and hand blow glass pug ornament
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I also have a lot of country style ornaments adorning my tree like apples, pine cones, and woodland creatures. I have classic shiny balls, icicles, and a few beaded ornaments that were handmade leftover from the 70's. Sprinkled in are Classic cartoon characters like the Grinch, a full set of all the misfit characters including the Abominable snowman and Yukon Cornelius. A partridge that perches near the tree top. And pugs, lots of pugs.

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Jet setting
June 25, 2007

By the time you read this, I'll be on a plane en route to California. I will awaken at 5:00AM, leave Connecticut at 7:00 AM EST, arrive in San Francisco @ 1:45 PST, go straight from the airport to a 2 hour meeting, followed by another meeting at 6:30PM, followed by dinner and if I'm lucky I might hit my hotel room at 1:00 AM, which is really 4:00AM my time. The next morning I will leave California at 7:00AM and won't see my home until 8:00PM. Just in time to give Pugs a birthday kiss and tuck him into bed with a couple new toys. Basically, I will cross a continent and back in 36 hours to get home to the Sausage on his milestone birthday. And all the while, I'll have this song stuck in my head, because it reminds me so much of him.

Click the arrow to play:

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I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

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Balancing
June 21, 2007

I go in spurts and phases. Totally on and then totally off, weaving in and out of things, I always have which is a bit contradictory to my nature because what I really crave more than anything is some form of consistency and security. It's complicated. I like it when things are on an even keel but not so much of any one thing that it takes me too far away from my sense of self or interferes with my passions and my freedoms.

I obsess over things, getting my fill to the point of overflowing and then move onto the next thing. I think it's a way to try different things and not get bored or bogged down by the everyday mundane.

Over the years I've done it with everything from exercising, dating, traveling, piano, fishing, movies, to drinking and going out, shopping, fishing, golfing, guitar, writing, sleeping, partying, scrap booking, volunteering, etc.

As a result, I know a little about a lot but am an expert at nothing.

Some people become so fixated on the destination that they stop living in the present and enjoying the moment. I'm just the opposite; I get so caught up on relishing little moments along the journey that I begin to lose sight of the prize...

It's both a blessing, and a detriment.

It's why I started this blog, really. A way to keep consistent with writing and documenting because my nature is to not be.....but it is. I know myself well enough to know that I need to hold myself accountable. It's also why I stopped making New Years resolutions, I'm aware of my flaws and weaknesses. Something that comes with age but awareness isn't always enough to trigger a reaction of change.

In addition to my free wheeling nature, my challenge lately has been finding the time and energy to do the things that keep me whole and grounded.

Enter the balancing act.

Finding time for friends and family and a personal life, caring for Pugsley and giving my all to my career, there isn't a whole lot left over for passions. There aren't enough hours in the weekdays and weekends are spent getting caught up on all the tactical that there isn't time for during the week. Like laundry and grocery shopping, and errands. It's hard to find the time to pursue new passions when you're just skating by with the necessities of life.

I feel like there needs to be two of me to get everything done and at the end of the day I still feel guilty for not calling my friends more, for not paying more attention to the pug, for not writing more chapters in my book, for passing on a date with a new guy who wants to take me wakeboarding on his boat, for not sitting down and finally putting my manuscript together and start meeting with agents, for not taking my laptop to an outdoor café on a sunny afternoon sipping coffee or eating gelato while people watching for inspiration. I want to do it all, and yet I can't seem to find the time.

And I realize at the end of the day it is of course all doable and well within my reach. So I must either be really lazy or really scared of rejection. I know that anyone who ever really wanted something badly enough had to work hard to get it. Had to push past fears and break down barriers. Had to lose sleep and make sacrifices and go out on a limb to attain it.

It's how much you want something. It's how badly you want it to happen. No matter what it is, I believe the formula is simple really; you make time and room in your life for things that matter.

I make time for my work and my journaling and my family and friends and of course for Pugsley. I make time for consistent exercise but I always feel like I could and should be doing more. And then I feel selfish because it seems that the more I give to others, the more I'm taking away from myself. From all the other things I feel guilty about not doing.

It's about pushing past fears and the things that hold us back. It's about going above and beyond when you don't think you have anything left to give and then you give that little bit more and just about when you're teetering on the end of your rope is usually when something unexpected and wonderful happens.

But its getting there...

Even if it means sleepless nights and a couple new wrinkles and some more dark circles under your eyes, even if it means saying no to other things to say yes to yourself. Sometimes you just have to because everyone has their own agenda and the things that matter to you might not matter to someone else. What may seem nonsensical to one, could mean the world to another.

The bottom line is you make time for what's important to you. And I'm starting to get that it's about spending your time with people who make room in their life for you, because you matter to them.

I'm going to make time for a lot of new things this summer and for pursuing my passions more aggressively. Life is too short not to, someone recently said. If I follow that path, then maybe just maybe I'll gain the consistency I crave without losing the self I want to become.

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cut and color
February 19, 2007

So I guess it was a big weekend in new hairstyles, what with Britney shaving her head completely bald and all. I found it rather sad and alarming and it made me wonder how with all of that adoration and money she could not have even one normal person in her life looking out for her wellbeing, helping her to make the right decisions. For the love of God, will somebody please help this girl before it's too late?

Anyway, I didn't do anything quite that drastic to my locks, as I believe all of my marbles are for the most part still in tact. T.G. But I decided to take a couple inches off and change up the color a tad, going a little darker blonde by adding some highlights and low lights. Now my old blonde has highlights of brownish gold instead of just blonde on blonde. For me, this is drastic. I don't know....what do you think?
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The Sweetest Things
January 8, 2007

So I got spoiled with all of my favorite things this year. The sweetest sights and sounds and touches and smells.
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Carvel Ice Cream cake
Foot Cheese Pizza
Flowers from Pugsley
Batch of frozen Slump with a bow on top!
Home made movies
Blueberry tea and the smile SL braved for me even though this was her tough week. Thanks SL!
Birthday kisses
Wine and smelly candles
and confectioners sugar on french toast

It was a delicious birthday all around.

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The Best and Worst of 2006
December 26, 2006

Found at Nicoles:

1. What did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before?
visited family on the West coast.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any resolutions for 2006, I don’t like setting myself up for failure. I’m a realist.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
not that I can think of

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no one close

5. What countries did you visit?
none I stayed in the good old USA.

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
a relationship.

7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 9th - the day I started my new job.
April 15th - my brother got married.
July 8th - one hot summer night.
August 19th - when I was driving to the salon on a sunny Saturday afternoon and my cell phone rang. It was Pugsley’s Dr. in a very somber tone calling to tell me his biopsy results were not what we were hoping to hear.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Landing a job that I love. It’s fast and furious, fun and entertaining, challenging and rewarding plus I’ve gotten to know some really great people.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not making more time for friends.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
my neck and migraines.

My legs getting burnt from the electric butt warmers in my Jeep. *update, the burns have healed and faded but it took 8 months!*

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Pugsley’s homeopathic cancer medicine

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
SL’s – she’s the best sister in law a girl could have and she gets extra merits for quitting smoking this year.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and disgusted?
This award goes to Kelly P and her creepy boyfriend, Mike. If there was an award for ignorance, foolishness, and making false judgments that are way off base, they would win that too. Kelly, you're sneaky but not very smart.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Pugsley’s medical bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
sex.

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
How to Save a Life, Hemorrhage, Sugar we’re going down

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier in some ways, sadder in others
b) thinner or fatter? About the same
c) richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
exercise.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying. It doesn’t change anything.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas Eve with family and friends and I spent Christmas day on the couch with the Pug because we were both sick.

21. How will you be spending New Years?
I’m not sure, I don’t plan that far ahead.

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
no.

23. How many one-night stands?
depends on the definition of a one night stand.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Nip/Tuck

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
There are people I don’t care for and people I feel sorry for, but I don’t hate anyone. I don’t believe in hatred.

26. What was the best book you read?
I didn’t read any books in 2006.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Learning to play Walk the Line on my guitar.

28. What did you want and get?
things I am not at liberty to say here.

29. What did you want and not get?
more of # 15

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Charlottes Web and the Nativity Story was good too.

31. What did you do on your birthday?
My family took me out to dinner.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
an honest passionate relationship.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
During the week, it’s work-appropriate and on weekends it’s classic but designer trendy with maybe some hint of boho and comfortable at all times.

34. What kept you sane?
Pugsley, blogging, and friendships.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
hmmm, none really.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
none, politics bores me.

37. Who did you miss?
friends who’ve lost touch and my grandparents.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I don’t like to play favorites so I’ll skip this one.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
That it would be impossible to please everyone all the time, so you shouldn’t waste your time trying. Also, that there are a lot of angry bitter people in the world and it is the bigger person who takes the high road and turns the other cheek. It’s best not to even waste valuable time and energy engaging them in their foolery.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

You think you know me
Word on the street is that you do
You want my history
What others tell you won't be true
I walked a thousand miles while everyone was asleep
Nobody's really seen my million subtleties
Got stains on my t-shirt and I'm the biggest flirt
Right now I'm solo, but that will be changing eventually,
I laugh more than I cry
You piss me off, good-bye
Got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me

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Traditions
December 11, 2006

Every year I go to the local fire department to pick out our Christmas tree. It’s right down the road and I figure why not support the local crew. This year, Pugsley came along in his Christmas sweater and helped choose just the right green spruce. Of course he wanted to lift his leg on every tree, which resulted in me carrying him around for most of the outing.

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Another tradition of mine is that I add a new country ornament to my collections every year. I go for pigs or sheep or cows, or some type of primitive farm animal. I found this silly country pig with wings and trees on them and a curly tail made out of wire.

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Perhaps the most important of all holiday traditions is the gross consumption of Baileys Irish cream. It must be drunk in the winter beginning on the day I get my tree and going throughout the months of December and January. I do have to be careful of Pugsley though. One year when I left a glass of Baileys on the coffee table he helped himself and got a little shall we say…loaded. This was many years ago but the funny thing is that he totally remembers the taste and smell. One whiff of Baileys and he gets a mad hankering and starts going crazy. Hee hee.

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What are some of your holiday traditions?

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Naughty or Nice?
December 3, 2006

Here are some things I've asked Santa for this year:

Gift certificates to any of the following:
Salon & Spa
Paypal
Sephora
Amazon

Pajamagram in pink plaid

Junior mints, Mike and Ikes, or Jujy Fruit

Pet Odor candles in Mulberry & Spice or Clothesline Fresh

Yoga mat

Drop light for my gym

2 Yoga blocks (for squats....my left knee clicks if I don't use a bolster)

Socks (white crew and colored cotton)

Heating pad (what can I say, I’m old!)

Gloves – blue or brown

New pair of running sneakers

Wen Shampoo in Fig

What's on your Christmas list this year?

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Thankful
November 19, 2006

The last two years I made big long lists of all the things I’m thankful for. They were all inclusive lists, paying homage to my friends and family and giving thanks for all the little everyday things we take for granted. Of course, I’m still very thankful for the same things so I won’t be redundant by repeating them all. This year I’m listing the biggest thing I’m thankful for.

As you all know, the biggest thing that’s happened this year is the big C. It’s been 3 months and right now I am highly thankful for Pugsley’s health.

I’m thankful for the cancer being reduced from a grade 3 to a grade 2.

Thankful the margins from his second surgery were clean.

Thankful for finding the best doctor in his field for Pugsley’s treatment and ongoing care.

Thankful for not having to put him through any intense chemical treatments that would compromise the quality of his life.

Thankful that he is doing great on his natural treatments.

Thankful that he’s never been more excited at mealtime.

Thankful that he’s just enjoying this quiet time in all of his royal Puggyness.

And while I’m at it, both of my brother’s dogs have been sick lately but as of right now they are both doing better. I am thankful for them too.

What are you most thankful for this year?

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Black and Blue
November 4, 2006

Just in case you thought I was exaggerating about what the phlebotomist did to my vein, check out the bruise on my arm.
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I wonder what my cervix looks like.

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Whoops
September 3, 2006

I reached for my morning pill and as soon as I swallowed, I knew something just wasn’t right. It was the same shape and bottle as mine, but I quickly realized I just ate one of Pugsley’s Clavamox.

I wonder if anything weird will happen, like I get the urge to start barking or lick my feet.

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Rip Tide
July 30, 2006

Q. What do you get when you cross Irish and Swiss DNA with the sun and salt water?

A. Burnt Skin

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My chest looks even worse.

Right, so a group of friends invited me to spend the day at the Misquamicut State beach in the great Ocean State of Rhode Island. We staked out our spot on the beach where we snacked, drank, and tanned for the first half of the morning. Pomegranate Martinis from the bar. Later on, it was a short walk down the beach to Paddy’s bar for lunch and afternoon dance party. Everything was fun until a fight broke out and beer bottles were smashed into faces and the cops came. Lame. Also lame was a Portuguese Man o War infestation, so swimming was out for me. With my luck, I would be the one to get stung and have a severe allergic reaction. After that it was a different vibe, we headed back to the mellow beach where I developed a crush on a heroic lifeguard. I would have been happy just staying there watching him run and rescue into the rip tide all day.
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Sorry to my Rhode Island blog friends who I missed this time, I’m planning another R.I. trip in August; maybe we can meet up then?

Time to go put my udder cream on now.

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Daylight Savings
April 2, 2006

It’s that time of year again when all of my clocks catch up. The clocks I never bothered to set back in the Fall are now magically telling the actual time again. It also means no more driving home from work in the dark. My Iris, trout plants, and tulips are already poking through the ground, reemerging after the white winter thaw to decorate my landscape in pretty shades of purple, blue, pale pink, and lavender. Rainbow trout in pools upstream, Pugsley chasing the birds in the yard, kadydids and peepers singing me to sleep, vacations and road trips, wearing skirts, gardening, a Spring wedding. Even the April showers, I’m looking forward to it all. Especially Autumn -- when I don’t have to set my clocks back because eventually, time on its own will make everything right again.

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Shotgun Shine
October 5, 2005

Alright, so maybe I'm not as tough as I thought I was after the shotgun post.

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Blessings
September 5, 2005

After being fixed to Fox News for the last week watching all the devastation that's occured down South, it was nice to just chill this weekend with Pugsley and the family. Saturday was my brothers Birthday / annual Labor Day bash and so the whacky celebration ensued. I can tell you now that he laughed out loud when he opened up the Box O' Hellgrammites that I wrapped in Birthday paper and all.. The River bugs were well received.

The other highlight of the party for me was spending time with my wild and crazy cousins who I don't see nearly enough. I have to tell you I love these cousins and now they all have children who are chips off the old block to adore too.

They are the side of the family who hugs, kisses, and says I Love you everytime. They are the cousins I used to play with when our families would go on picnics and camping. Sleepovers, bowling, and rollerskating parties. The cousins I learned to swim in the lake with when our fathers and uncles threw us out of the boat into the deep end.

It’s important to feel understood by people who get you, who were reared with similar values. The people who knew you when.. The family who isn’t afraid to tie on a good drunk in front of the elders, start singing at the top of our lungs, or dance like fools when nobody else is and just not care. Yes we did all of these things. It's nothing new though, we've been carrying on this way for years. But we were long overdue.

I've been hearing a lot of horrific stories in the news about people trying to get out of New Orleans alive and having to leave their pets behind. Hearing about Shelters that don't allow animals so they have no place to go. I can't imagine any situation where I would leave Pugsley behind. I really feel that if a shelter didn't allow me to bring Pugsley, I wouldn't go. But the reality is that many people don't know where their families or pets are right now. And I guess it's all made me put my little problems into perspective and feel grateful for the things I do have. Like knowing where my family and friends are all sleeping tonight. Like frolicking on the lawn with Pugsley or taking him for a car ride.

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You Say It's Your Birthday
January 5, 2005

Well, it's almost that time of year when I'll turn 29 again.
Friday is my birthday. I think anything will top last year
when I spent January 7th hospitalized with a poisoned liver.

Now in case any of you were wondering what to get me this year,
Here are a couple of gift ideas :)

Pugtini Print (extra points for framing)
Gift Card to Adam Broderick (so I can stay waxed and coifed)
Anything from my Amazon Wishlist

Or even better than spending money on me, go VOTE
for me at the 2005 Bloggies!! Plenty of categories like:
"Best New Blog", "Best MEME" , "Best-Kept-Secret Blog"
If only there was a prize for Best Dog Blog...maybe next year.

But hurry, voting ends 1/10/05

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Year in Review
December 24, 2004

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A Wise man once said,
"It's not the destination
but the journey that counts."

And with that in mind, I was inspired
to write down some of the important
things I learned this year.

Things I've Learned in 2004

No matter how much you love, miss, and care for someone, if they have hurt or disappointed you more than they’ve made you happy then it’s time to let go. I know this one may sound obvious but the heart can’t always comprehend what the mind logically knows.

You learn to surround yourself with people who do care about you, who would never hurt or abandon you.

If you’re feeling rage and desire all at the same time, chances are good the thing you are raging and desiring over is not necessarily the grand prize that your inner child thinks it is.

Some of Life’s best surprises happen when you rekindle an old friendship or start a new one.

If you have your health, family, friends, and animals who mean the world to you and you to them, then you have more than most.

If you are involved with a man who is ambivalent to you in any way shape or form, chances are very good that "he is just not that into you". You should walk away and find one who really is into you because you deserve no less.

Intellectualizing and obsessing won’t change the past.

I've learned that there are people who would rather be "right" than be in your life. Would rather win an argument than win your respect.

I’ve learned that getting older isn’t about wrinkles and running out of time. It’s about learning to live with regret, loss and pain. It’s about overcoming insurmountable obstacles and making mistakes because we are human. It’s about not beating yourself up for misplacing your pride or dignity during a mistake of the heart. It’s about taking away a lesson that you carry on and learn not to repeat.

It’s about learning to survive disappointment and unfathomable loss and then coming out on the other side a stronger, more knowledgeable, compassionate, and forgiving person for having gone through it. It’s about perfecting your character and building inner strength because you will need to call upon these tools later on when even worse stuff happens. It’s about training for the great marathon of life.

It’s about learning how to pour more life into your half-empty glass because nobody else will fill it up for you.

You do it for yourself and you do it to honor what was, what never can be again, and what has yet to be in the future.

You realize that you may be the only one who is alone at the holiday party but if you force yourself to go, you will not feel lonely.

If you find yourself unhappy in a situation, don’t get caught up in complaining about it. You take action and make some changes to put yourself into a better situation. This applies to work, relationships, etc. Life is too short to be involved in anything that compromises your quality of life or those around you.

You learn that eventually the songs you once couldn’t bare to listen to (because they conjured up too many painful memories and images) end up becoming your anthem and theme songs. Then one day you catch yourself driving down the road doing the sing-along and you realize you’ve just hit a milestone.

You learn to take things hour-by-hour, day-by-day, week-by-week, nurturing your soul in between the milestones.

Your memory starts to return and you recall that you were once a strong, peaceful, glowing spirit to be reckoned with and you learn that you can be again.

I’ve learned that there is no “perfect closure” and that sometimes if you go looking for it in false places to get a temporary "fix" that will only create more sense of loss. It can put you back at square one in the healing process.

I’ve learned that grief has its own rhythm and that there is no set timetable or process for how or when someone recovers from a loss. Everyone has their own way of dealing and healing.

You learn that when it’s too painful to pull out the Christmas ornaments that you purchased together, you have to force yourself to do it anyway. You buy your own tree and you "decorate your own soul”. You string up your own lights without the help of a 6-foot man. You get creative and figure out that you can toss a balled-up string of lights around the back of the tree, walk around and repeat. You make your own traditions and create your own rituals and you learn that while you may wish he was there you don’t actually need him there…

You learn that it will cause you great pangs of sadness to sit alone and stare at the soft flickering lights of the tree that you enjoyed so much year after year as "two". But now you are "one" and you realize that you can’t run or hide from it. You have to plant yourself in front of the tree, invite the pain in and let yourself feel it. You have to own it, embrace it, and make yourself vulnerable to it like it is your best friend or a new lover.

And you learn that in confronting the sadness you can make peace with it. You learn that the tree is a symbol of your strength and independence. You put up the tree because life goes on, and because it pleases the pug.

People who have inspired me this year with their strength and brought me comfort during dark days: Toni, Nicholas, Laura, Juliette, Nicole, Jim G., Linda V., Sean, Amanda, Karen G. Thank you!!

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Meeting the Horses
October 31, 2004

Even though I was out until 3:00am, I made it up early enough Sunday morning (Thank God for Daylight Savings time) to go to the Horse Farm as planned, where I will be volunteering by way of grooming, feeding, and walking the horses.

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